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So finally I got some beautiful weather! It has been pretty rainy and bleak, for the last week and a half at least. So it was a little disappointing, but I woke up today, and it was so gorgeous, I knew it was a perfect day, to take my first solo jump out of an airplane, at 14,500 feet above the ground!

Truth be told, yes, I was a bit nervous. There was a 5-6 hour ground class that I had to take before I could do this solo jump. I took that class on Aug. 17th, and had planned on jumping the next day, while all the stuff I learned was still fresh in

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What the fuck!?  Tomorrow is day 30, and it hasn't been any easier as the days go by.  Honestly, the only thing that has kept me clean this long, is the fact I am still waiting on the job I applied to, to tell me when and where to go for a physical and a drug test.  I have been trying to wait as patiently as possible.  But with all of these drug dreams I have been having, it makes it soo fucking difficult!  During the hours I am awake, I find that I am not always constantly thinking about drugs.  But it does make it difficult to dream about it ... continue reading "day 29"

Day 14 and I am on the verge of cracking.  I feel confident that if I just stay home, I won't get high.  But it gets pretty lonely here.  And tv usually sucks.  Video games bore me lately.  If it wasn't for this site, I would have absolutely nothing to do.  So thank god for M+!  I have been avoiding a lot of my friends that use, because watching them get high, or constantly talking about drugs and getting high, just makes it that much harder for me to stay clean.  Since it has been a while, one of my friends just called me a few minutes... continue reading "Day 14"

Well, it has been hellish.  Today, Tuesday, is the tenth day in a row I have managed to stay sober.  Now it may not sound like a big accomplishment.  And in all reality, I guess it isn't really...  But it feels like a big deal to me.  Only because I haven't had this many days consecutively sober, in I don't know how long.  I wish this made me happier.  Really the only reason I have gone this many days, well, aside from the fact that I was broke 8 out of 10 of those days, I am trying to clean up to pass a drug test for a new job.  Otherwise

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